bee.

Wed, 03 Jan 2007 08:08:14 GMT

New Livejournal.
http://bee-crunk.livejournal.com/

Thu, 28 Dec 2006 08:16:02 GMT

hahazzzz mine :]
12/22

Anyway, I'm in Colorado now.
It's fuckin gorgeous.
Snowboardin tomorrow, I gotta wake up in 6 hours :[
Today was pretty miserable due to the fact that my sinus/upper respitory infection decided to strike back halfway through the two hour flight up here.
Not to mention, it happens to be that time of the month again.
The combination of the two is deadly.

I sent some pictures of the snow to my album earlier,
but they still haven't made it yet.
I'll have em up tomorrow hopefully.

Mon, 04 Dec 2006 07:16:57 GMT

It really suprises me
how much drama and shit talking takes place
among a group where the average age is probably about 19.
You'd think it'd have gotten old by the time ya graduated highschool.

Thu, 30 Nov 2006 06:35:29 GMT

She and I are NOT the same person.
I don't go out of my way to get male attention.
I think before I act.

I'm sick of dealing with bullshit.
I'm sick of the new fabricated personality.

Thu, 23 Nov 2006 11:02:24 GMT

Chumscrubber is a good movie.
If you haven't seen it,
you should.

One person on my friends list in particular.

Tue, 21 Nov 2006 09:59:18 GMT

wtf
They say we're perfect.
Part of me didn't want it that way.
The other part is more than pleased.

I like it better the way it is.
I'm glad its not rushed.
I'm glad its not definite.
I'm glad it's unsure.
Now will someone please slap me?
Stop lookin at the future.

Sat, 18 Nov 2006 09:29:54 GMT

Two days in a row.
I expected more from someone like you.
I guess that's just it though.
Everyone's "special" until they just aren't anymore.
You're not gonna know I'm pissed.
I don't intend to tell you.
Just don't expect to hear from me any time soon.

I hope
I hope I hope I hope I hope,
that we can still go out of town tomorrow.
The only reasons we wouldn't would be
A. laziness
B. Chris backs out
Fuck I hope Chris doesn't back out.
I want to get out of here so bad.
Meteor shower tomorrow night
or tonight considering its 3:30 in the morning.
I don't want to sleep.
I hate sleep.
The menu for "Where the Heart Is" has been playing the same song for the past two hours.
It's actually becoming quite irritating,
but I'm afraid if I get up to turn it off
the serial killer in my bathroom is gonna come out and stab me in the tummy with a tire iron.
I'm not lookin forward to that.
I like rambling.
kbye

Wed, 15 Nov 2006 06:42:08 GMT

There are
more important things.
Slow down child, there's no rush

Mon, 13 Nov 2006 06:44:33 GMT

desperately searching for a connection with anyone who speaks
looking for something more
something pure

"Slippers and cheap wine meet the occasion tonight
the sky newly lit by a faux tahitian light.
A scientific investigation,
has called for celebration
and every dreamer’s getting ready for a fight
Architects, designers,
artists, and writers,
we’re all mearly humans, simply searching for a cause.
Crack junkies in heat,
only looking for a beat,
aching for a connection,
crying for something more.

We keep pushing harder and we keep falling back,
searching for another just to make up what we lack.
It’s too hard to admit,
we started this shit.
We’re lost in ourselves,
stuck on commercial shelves,
crying for attention,
aching apprehension.
God only knows how we’ve made it thus far.
We hold on to our hopes, our dreams, and who we are.
Pray that whatever’s up there will heal our pathetic scars,
wipe away our pain, grant our wishes on the stars
and eventually find us someone that we can name as ours."

Sun, 12 Nov 2006 12:31:37 GMT

I'm back at my mom's again.
The sunrise is fuckin breathtaking.
When I walked Chris out the sky was dark blue and along the treeline it was the prettiest baby blue with bright green grass, oh man.

By the way,
I love Chris.
We watched Mandy Moore movies all night,
went for a walk and talked about everything.
We're both faggots, stuck on exes that will never treat us right.

Whatever, I'm really anticipating him coming back.
I don't give a fuck if its not "healthy"
Everyone's telling me that if I see him it'll fuck with my head.
Fuck that.
Coincidentally, the same people that said I was an alcoholic and I couldn't drink normally.
Look at me now, bitches.
I can take care of myself.
I can make my own decisions without anyone tellin me what's gonna happen,
and that's exactly what I intend to do.

ps.
Veronica's a fuckin bitch when ya try to wake her up for work.. lol

Fri, 10 Nov 2006 14:03:11 GMT

So I'm out of my house again,
though I'll probably be back home within the next few hours.
Mama and I need marraige counselling..

Veronica's at school
and I'm actually really jealous.
I wish I had somewhere that I needed to get up and be everyday
-but I know if I was there I'd say the exact opposite.

They gave me a job app at Starbucks,
even though ya gotta be 18 to work there
I was talkin to one of the guys about my life
and he said it sounded like I really needed it lol.

Other than that,
the boy that made me crazy is coming back to Houston,
which completely blows my mind.
I can't even begin to relay, let alone comprehend my own thoughts on that one.

I think I've turned somewhat hard.
Everytime something's happened between my mom and I,
its been tears and "I'm hurt because.."
but now I'm straight up angry.
I'm giving a fuck, less and less and less.
I don't care who knows I'm mad,
I don't care who heard me screaming,
I could give a shit if she's upset.

I was sitting on a street corner last night
waiting to get picked up [edit: hahah, I'm a damn hooker]
and this couple came around the corner,
They both turned and saw me.
The chick nearly fell off her bike
and the guy looked like he just got punched in the face.
By the time they rode away I realized I was holding a screwdriver in my hand
looking like I was about to stab someone.
bahhah

"I had a dream once
but then I woke up,
though it never really seemed to end.
I dreamt I saw a frog but I thought it was a rat
It made me take a walk until I couldn't go any farther.
It made me sit in the grass in the middle of the unknown.
The sky above me, it went on forever
and the ground below me went all around me.
It made me dream of the ghosts of my past.

The boy who slept beside me,
he cried in his sleep.
He awoke to darkness and hugged his knees.
I've never really left him since
but he moved far away
to the shore of an ocean that doesn't ever end
to bare feet and shallow waters and shorts filled with sand.

It made me dream of a red man I used to know,
he yelled and screamed till every vein would show.
He would throw and stomp and punch and pull
but one day he left me
to a place I'll never go.
His face filled with numbers numbers and plans and schemes
to this day his words are not what they seem,
though I've never really left him since."

Mon, 06 Nov 2006 08:13:48 GMT

I can't possibly explain how glad I am to be single.

I have wayy too much shit going on to be tied down to someone
and really I like having no one to keep track of me.
haha I'm a freeeeeeeee woman,
fuck yeah.

dear you,

Tue, 31 Oct 2006 21:08:50 GMT

Go fuck yourself.

Mon, 23 Oct 2006 05:28:53 GMT

I'm gonna change,
right now.
I'm not even kidding.

That's the last of this.

Wed, 18 Oct 2006 09:24:09 GMT

Is it possible for the US to get a president that anyone actually likes?

Why does it seem like every person we're supposed to respect [ex: priests, congressmen, celebrities] is going to jail for tax or sex scandals?

Ha, it's starting to look like N. Korea is gonna start World War III.. pretty sweet, eh? Not to mention we have an incompetent president. Basically, we're fucked..

Sun, 08 Oct 2006 23:15:21 GMT

Okay,
so rumor has it
my mom and I are moving to Brooklyn, NY at the end of this school year..
We have a 5 story tenant house that'll be given to us for free.
We'll own the first story and the basement (which is pretty much another aparment [mine] that just needs to be cleaned up a bit.) and there will be three tenant floors above us.
It's really close to the college I want to go to.

For those of you that know us at all,
you know we don't follow through with a lot of plans we make.
I'm kinda freakin out though..
:/

Sun, 08 Oct 2006 12:08:59 GMT

It's amazing when boys think they're so different from other guys.
"I'm not like them, I know how to treat a lady."
"I'm not a random guy, I've known you for a week."
Less than twenty-four hours from each other.
There is a very small number of boys I can honestly say are "different"
and chances are, if you're a random myspace boy, or aquaintance from work
you're not that amazing.

haha
kay, thanks.
I look forward to hearing your new pick up lines soon.

Fri, 06 Oct 2006 06:50:06 GMT

Haha,
guys are asses..
even the good ones.
Promise.

Tue, 03 Oct 2006 03:41:17 GMT

I'm a genius.
I have found the cure to existentialism.
It is as follows:

1. Watch the movie "Waking Life."
2. Listen to Holes to Heaven by Jack Johnson.

Repeat as needed.

Sat, 30 Sep 2006 09:56:29 GMT

Hm..
today
has been
a day.
Pretty shitty and pretty amazing.

Kay and Vero are in my bed
and we're discussing all of the things we need to do.
Ugh, I dont want to do anything.
I feel really sick.

What am I doing?

Fri, 29 Sep 2006 16:27:23 GMT

Haha
wow dude,
this is fucking
ridiculous.

Thu, 28 Sep 2006 08:22:31 GMT

Cleaning always brings back so many memories.

-My most embarassing moment ever.. the first time I rode a dirtbike.
-Veronica Luna dropping her backpack on my dog's food bowl haha.
-Sitting in the corner while twelve pdap guys played poker and I sat in the corner and crochetted all night.
-The first time Andrew and I went downtown [one of the most amazing days of my life, I must admit].
-Going to the park with Brandon the day his friend got shot, being drunk off my ass and getting in a mud fight.
-The infamous nosebreak of Kenny the drunken redneck.
-Kolaches with my dad and brother every Friday before school.
-"Deyunk" everynight before bed.
-Carrying baby Button across the pipes after he'd taken to many bars in the forest.
-"Out there"
-Chelsea and the dancing clit.. [haha, I found the sign tonight!]
-The time the four of us were on our way to tag completely drunk and a cop pulled up. Cboo and Erin hid behind the car and Shelby talked to the cop while I stood on the other side of the fence spray painting random letters and smoking a cigarette haha.
-Sophie and her nightly visits and trips to the pipe.
-The time I dropped the blunt in the river and three of us almost drowned trying to retrieve it only to end up loosing it to the evil washing machine later that week.
-Getting high in the garage in that hanging chair everyone always fought over.
-Spending all day trying to make a bong out of that stupid green vase [haha I wonder what happened to that thing].
-Lyna falling in love with CJ then rolling in her own puke and pissing herself.
-Drunken lesbian nights with Sophie and Lauren.

I love you all, even if we've lost touch.
I'll never forget any of it.

Mon, 25 Sep 2006 06:13:51 GMT

My hair is brown,
looks terrible,
if I do say so myself.

These past two days
have been so over my head
I can't even explain.

It'd make it a lot easier if,
from now on when I meet people
they'd tell me what they want from me straight off the bat,
so I can immediatly cross them off my list of potential friends.

Wed, 20 Sep 2006 21:44:32 GMT

..and we all know the question
that's on everyone's minds
but we're afraid to ask it
for fear that it will ruin
that which would have been destiny.
If this is the case,
all hope for me is lost.
Oh well.. lol :]

Tue, 19 Sep 2006 05:22:12 GMT